"What's in Your Heart is Your Prayer"

Even if you don't believe in prayer, even if you don't pray, whatever lies in your heart is what you are asking for. Have you ever prayed and prayed asking for something to no avail? Have you ever felt like you weren't being heard by higher powers? Have you felt like you were doomed, cursed into bad fortune? Has your heart hurt in despair as you asked why? Why were all of these undesired things and events happening to you? You could feel a sense of pity for yourself, feeling sorry for yourself, and how do I know? I know because I have been that person. I have been the person to question my entire existence more than once. I have felt like I was under a hex from past lives before. I have felt like I was being punished for all of my misdeeds. I have felt sorry for myself, but I didn't want others to feel sorry for me. In my mind I was the only one going through the trenches, and they couldn't have possibly known how I felt, and then I felt self-centered. This constant judging myself became a regular practice. And we know what practice makes.. yea, right.

These troublesome times led me to learn and want to learn about myself. These trying times placed me on a path to self-knowledge, self awareness, self-reflection, and self-healing, in which I am currently and always embarking. I am not claiming to know everything or anything, I can only go on my own experiences. I have a wealth of life experiences that may be unusual to some, however those experiences shaped me into who I am now, and I am grateful for them. 

In the past, before I was tapped on the shoulder by Divine hand, I was living in a state of detachment from my spirit. I was living a purely physical experience, so I thought, and it was not my purpose or destiny to live in that fashion. I wasn't aware of some of my practiced behaviors and that I would live to feel embarrassed of them later. I didn't realize that I had the power to control my thoughts while I was allowing my thoughts to control me. I didn't understand the magnitude of putting thought and feeling together in what I would be creating. I didn't know that I couldn't hide what was in my heart.

I thought that I was hiding.

Ha!

Hiding was my thing to do. I am reclusive by nature, I can be extremely shy, so I found myself overcompensating to prove that I wasn't shy at all. There's a Japanese phrase that says "we have 3 faces, the first one you show to the world, the second you show to your family, and the last you never show to anyone." But guess what? That face that you never show to anyone, is tucked away in your heart, and that is your true face. It is your primary face, your real self, and it will be the face that lives in your heart, bringing about manifestations. 

So the face that I never show to anyone was creating this warfare inside at times, while in desperate hope for major change. I had gathered up all my childhood experiences, especially the traumatic ones, with my young adult experiences, and allowed them to sit inside my heart. And what we allow to sit in our hearts, festers. 

Our heart is the mother organ of our bodies and it holds all of our thoughts, beliefs, feelings, and experiences. You've heard or maybe even said, "I believe it in my heart, I know it in my heart," I feel it in my heart," why? Because the heart knows.

It knows, it feels, even if we ignore the feeling of it. The heart is said to be magnetically 5,000 times more stronger than the brain. Our heart is strong and can hold a massive amount of everything, until that gets to be too much, and we know what happens then. 

What we hold in our heart we are asking for, reinforcing, powering up, and it is our prayer.
We don't have to speak a word, all we have to is feel it in our heart, and our mind will take us there. 

I am not speaking of this heart business just in terms of events and circumstances that we don't want, I am also speaking in terms of what we desire. What we ask for, what we are desiring, all we have to do is feel it in our heart, and keep that feeling in our heart, and it will unfold into great manifestations. The Universe knows what the heart feels, and it will send synchronicities, messages, and guides your way to lead you towards your heart's desires. Keeping the feeling of your desires in your heart will travel to your thoughts, and as they are aligned together, abracadabra will speak from your lips, and so it will come into formation. 

Even the Earth has a heart beat, a heart vibration, a heart magnetic field, and if you rearrange the letters of Earth, turning the word around, it spells heart. Our collective consciousness sends out a vibration to the Earth's atmosphere, we create the vibration that the Earth gives us with our heart's vibration. Think if we could all vibe in harmony?

We are responsible for every thought we send out, every thought carries a vibration, and we send these thoughts out into the collective consciousness. What we do matters, our thoughts just don't affect us, and our heart's vibration, it affects the whole. 

When we ask in word without faith in our heart that it is already done, we are not connecting with that Omnipresent Source from which all stems from. When we ask we are telling the Universe that we lack, meanwhile our life experience is filled with abundance. All we have to do is step into our abundant gifts that we came here with. We don't ask, we claim, we know in our heart.