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Come, sit with me, close your eyes, hold my hand, let's go far away from this place to the place in which you came from.
"It's Not About How you Start, It's About How You Finish"
I choose this topic today because it resonates with many situations that I am facing right now in mind and in my physical state.. For one, my day started out great, so I'd thought. Then it seemed like all hell broke out loose on me.
Let me state this! I know that something fantastic is coming to me, because of the multiple attacks that I fought through to a get to and maintain a good mood today and yesterday.
I write and speak so much positivity that I have to be aware of the attacks that come to test me to see if I am real about mine. :) I received news from my doctor that would normally make me sad and depressed, but I am not falling for that. I was calm and steady when the doctor was making her predictions, and I gave her a bit of my shoulder shrugs because she is not over my life and what happens in it. God is in control and when God is finished with the purposes that I came here for, I will ascend. I have faith in the healing presence of God that dwells within me, and I feel healthy. I speak health and I speak feeling good. I work on my mind state every day, so no doctor or person will come and alter that for me. I spent many years giving my power away, but it's not about how you start, it's about how you finish.
I have been getting into a mode of totally focusing on myself and my healing because what can we do without my health? I have begun to sort through all of the activities that I partake in, eliminating what is unnecessary. I have been focusing on what I truly want to do in life. It may seem like I am passing up wonderful opportunities, and that's okay for me. I overstated that improving my health is the most important opportunity that I will ever have. I know how it feels to be down and sick in bed from not taking care of my spirit, mind, and body, and it is the worst feeling ever. You learn that once you're sick, you're sick, and you see how much control that you really do not have at that point. You see that it takes time to get well. Prevention is key and it always better than treatment.
We become ill from overextending ourselves and living in stress mode. We are so accustomed to being stressed and seeing stress as a normality. Anything that brings me stress, I am eliminating, and I will work on that piece by piece if I must. I am not looking to manage stress, we manage what we want. I am looking to totally eliminate stress. And I know you're thinking, that's not possible, but it is. I can eliminate how I react to stress by not falling into its pitfalls. I am living for my purposes, because I don't know how long I will be here, and none of my days are promised.
The way my day started I felt it even more because it is Monday. I am moon child and Mondays is the Mood day, so I felt the pressures more intensely. I have talked about this before, people are more prone to heart attacks on Mondays, and they are moody, and it isn't just because their coming off of the weekend I have worked on breaking the pattern of Mondays, and although it started out rough for me, it is finishing quite lovely. I found myself saying I am balanced, serene, and calm whether life is perfect or not every day. It may have started out rough, but I was like we are NOT doing this today, "Today will be great." I can be a moon child forever, but I dictate how I respond to what happens to me on Mondays or any other days.
In finding my purpose, I had to eliminate my ego about it. Ego and purpose don't go in the same sentence. I won't look to do what feeds my ego avatar. I am here to be a vessel for God. It's so easy to get caught up in what our ego wants, to be filled with praise from other people for that connection and acknowledgement, but that's not our purpose. We can end up doing something that we don't like because we are doing it for the praise of other people, and we are left feeling unfulfilled. We must do what is fulfilling for us.
It doesn't matter if we didn't start in a fulfilling position, as long as we don't remain there. As long as we have the courage to make a move, to move on from that position to our true purpose is all that matters. Many of us come fresh out of high school or college wanting to do one thing, maybe for the income of it, and find that it brings us unhappiness once we're well in that position. We don't have a set age and time when we have to know what our purpose is, there is no rush, but we can know what it's not. We can know what's for us, by the way it makes us feel. We must use some of these jobs and careers as stepping stones, to step higher to our primary goal.
It doesn't matter if we start off slow just as long as we keep going. It doesn't matter how we start, we will emerge as pure gold. Be patient with yourself if you are not where you want to be in life right now. I say this to myself often because I find myself being hard on myself for where I am, but as I look back, I realize that it's significant progress from where I have come from.
I have started with a bad attitude, out of alignment, and out of order in all ways, and God shaped me up placing me on my path. I have started bed written and unable to do one jumping jack, and now I can do a full work out. I have started out eating a junk food diet, living a junky lifestyle, unconsciously behaving and participating in mess, and now all of those things are gone from my life. I eat healthy junk food :) I don't participate in mess at all, and my lifestyle is centered around healing, peace, and health.
We lose ourselves along the way forgetting who we are, and why we came, but events and situations lead us to the path of finding our true nature. I started out the way I am headed back to now. I stopped explaining myself to people who misunderstand me, because they don't know my purpose. They don't know my heart. No one can see inside of you, they may catch a glimpse, or speculate, but they don't know. So don't let anyone try to drag you backwards reminding you of how you used to be, reminding you of what you used to do. It doesn't matter what you have done in the past, you are changing it now.
Even if you started out addicted to drugs, alcohol, sex, and food, out of shape physically and mentally, it doesn't mean that you don't have to end there. It doesn't matter where you start as long as you start. Even if you must begin again and again, do it, and do it with you head held high. No one has walked in your shoes, and this is your journey alone. You can have a poor attitude this morning, and change it by mid-day, improving how your day. You can start out feeling like you don't want to do something, not enthused or encouraged, and that can change. You have a right to change your mind, to change your perspective, and change who you are.
You could start out making poor grades and finish making A's and B's. Your relationship can start out toxic and you can change it, and be grateful to have the opportunity to change it. You can start out ungrateful and complaining, and change that into being thankful and happy. You can start out sad and depressed, and change it to an exciting life. You may start off despising something and end up loving it. You can start off mismanaging your money, financially educate yourself, and become financially independent. You could start out not knowing what you're doing in your field, and turn out to be one of the top people in your field. It doesn't matter how you begin, it just matters that you begin, and that you keep going. Never give up. We have chance after chance as long as we breathe.
“Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can” Arthur Ash
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