THE ULTIMATE EXPERIENCE
Come, sit with me, close your eyes, hold my hand, let's go far away from this place to the place in which you came from.
We Leave the Present Moment for an Untouchable Past and an Unforeseeable Future ...
“If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.”
― Lao Tzu
As I searched my soul for a topic to write about, this topic came into my mind in the early hours of the morning. I was already awake as my head popped up and I thought, "yes we need to talk about this."
Years ago I read the book by Eckhart Tolle, "The Power of Now: A Spiritual Guide to Enlightenment," and it changed my life forever. Even though I only remember specific parts about the book, I remember most the message, and that was keep your mind in the present moment. By keeping your mind in the present moment, you wouldn't be filled with shoulda's, coulda's, and regret. At the time I was regretting a lot of my past choices. I didn't like where I was in life. I wasn't giving gratitude for just being here. I was so focused on what I thought I should have done or could have done. I would say that if I could go back in time I "woulda done so and so," how I would have done so many things differently. I wasn't looking at the fact of what's done is done.
I was speaking to my brother who was incarcerated at the time about how I was feeling, and he said to me, "You know what book you should get? The Power of Now." I bought the book as he recommended and read it, I was immersed in it, I loved it. It talks about regretting and visiting the unchangeable past and how doing so affects the present moment.
Pay close attention to your conversations throughout the day, and you will recognize how much you speak outside of the present moment. What can you do outside of the present moment? We talk about how we should have handled our money differently. We go over hurtful experiences and talk about what we would have done differently if we had another chance. We speak about relationships that went sour and what we could have done differently. We regret encountering the people that hurt us speaking about what we could have done to avoid ever meeting them. I think that's the one that gets us the most, the people that we wish we'd never met.
One bad relationship experience can seriously impair our trust for being open to meeting anyone else and letting them into our heart. It could be a friendship that goes sour and we will be singing, "no new friends." Do you know how many women that I’ve met who say that they don't have female friends or very few, due to a lack of trust for women? You know why this is? They have been burned by a so-called friend, and that's a pain that they don't ever want to feel again. It's the same thing in a relationship with a significant other, once they break the trust bond, you feel like you never knew them. You ask yourself, "How much of the relationship was a lie?" You will go crazy replaying conversations and intimate moments in your mind trying to figure out what you missed or what you should have done.
We think outside of the present moment about the past and the future. We worry about the future, about things that we need to get done, and how things will manifest. We can get anxiety about what we're going to do about certain upcoming situations. We can get filled with "what-ifs,"thinking ahead and become fearful about things that haven't happened and most likely won't happen.
How many times have you been anticipating things with fear just for them to go better than you imagined? How many times have you worried about situations that turned out perfectly for you? There was a time where I had an addiction to worrying. I prayed and worried at the same time. I couldn’t sleep at night and it wasn’t insomnia, it was worry. Some of what I worried about I brought into fruition while some of the things that I worried about never happened. Either way, I was good, I was safe, I am still here.
I monitor my thoughts and conversations to make sure that I am operating in the present moment. What can I do about something that has already happened? What can I do to control the future? I can visualize, meditate, and speak affirmations over my future instead of worrying about it, yet I still cannot control the Divine plan for me.
I have been in some terrifying situations with my health that made me revisit the past and the future continuously with uncertainty and fear. I have been filled with regret for making decisions in regards to my health that landed me in places and situations that I didn't want to be in. This year I have been fighting for my life the entire time because I went for treatment and was severely injured in the hospital. It became difficult to look at what my future would be like. Would I make it to the future with doctors constantly telling me that I was going to die?
I had to keep my mind in the present moment. I would become fearful when I would think about what my future looked like as I looked at my injured body and replayed the past in my mind of doctors telling me I was going to die if I didn’t take dangerous treatments. Then my mind would lead me to regret from going to the hospital and staying there when my insides were telling me to leave. I was just trying to get help for discomfort and I got hurt instead.
I went back to "The Power of Now." I only have power in this moment. No matter how I try to stretch my mind to the past, I am led back to the current moment for relief. There is nothing that I can do about what has already been done.
When we take ourselves out of the current moment, our subconscious mind follows us, creating from that space. Our subconscious mind gives us more of what we feel and focus on. If we focus on the past, our subconscious will give us more experiences like it because it can't determine the difference between our present moment and the past or future. If we are thinking about the future and giving it a feeling, it will manifest in how we see it. Our subconscious mind works for us and it handles 95 percent of our actions and behaviors. Whatever thought and emotion that we give it, it helps us by manifesting it, it doesn't matter if it's in the past, present, or future.
We can ruin good relationships by focusing on the past and what happened in the past, painful experiences. This is the cause of most of our arguments in relationships, some past unhealed hurtful experience. We can also hinder our future relationships by focusing on hurt that happened to us in past relationships. If we focus on painful experiences of the past, the future will give us similar situations, insinuating a cycle that we will think is our life or our fate. “If your mind carries a heavy burden of the past, you will experience more of the same. The past perpetuates itself through lack of presence. The quality of your consciousness at this moment is what shapes the future.”
― Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment
When we think and feel in the present moment, being totally present in the current moment, we are most powerful. Because our subconscious mind works solely for the present moment, that is where we hold our power for creation and manifestation. It takes conscious work not to bring up the past and become anxious about the future. If we want to create a desired future, we have to be happy about the future in the present moment. I don't know about you, but I am excited about my future. Even with all of the adversity that I face, I am excited because I am optimistic and I know the Universe is always working for us and never against us. And I will maintain a disposition like I know that. “Nothing has happened in the past; it happened in the Now. Nothing will ever happen in the future; it will happen in the Now.”
― Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment
The book helped me, yet meditation helped me even more. Meditation helps you in detaching from the past, the future, people, and painful experiences. The more I meditate the more I detach from fears, from people that hurt me, and from the past. I have been in conversation and as soon as I recognize that I am talking about a painful past experience, I'll say, "let me shift this conversation now. If I am sitting with my thoughts and I drift to the past and what I could have done instead, I bring myself out, leading my mind back to the present moment, and when I get there, I feel so much better.
I can feel my power in the present moment. I feel free from everything in the present moment, I mean being immersed in thought, feeling, and totally present in the current moment is where you’ll find peace. I find gratitude in the present moment knowing that I am alive, and I have so many wonderful things to talk about and think about in the present moment. I am not focused on the unchangeable past and I can create from the present moment. I can think clearly from the present moment. When I go to the past in my mind I am met with frustration and irritation because I find myself trying to stretch my mind and paint the past in the way that I would have liked it to go instead of letting it be. Because the past will always be the way it is and there is nothing that I can do to change that.
The present moment is a gift because I can be sure to be free in thought and feeling. I am not bound by things that I can’t control being present in the now.
Life is much more enjoyable in the now. I work out all my past mishaps and future concerns in meditation. I leave it all there and I don’t go back to visit them.
The present moment is all that we have. We don’t have the past or the future in our hands, we have no power over those times. When we think in the past we can feel exactly how we felt in that moment and start to stir up uncomfortable emotions, reliving it all, because that’s how our subconscious mind works. When we focus on the future we can become anxious about how things will turn out. Our subconscious mind gives us what we feel and more of what we keep feeling.
The secret is in the feeling.
“Die to the past every moment. You don't need it. Only refer to it when it is absolutely relevant to the present. Feel the power of this moment and the fullness of Being. Feel your presence.” ― Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment
You can literally paint your future with your imagination. However you want it.
Thanks for reading and for hanging in there with me!
Infinite love to you,
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Take the Path of Least Resistance, see where it leads you...
Lift me higher oh Lord
Keep me level to the ground
Let me flow low like water dear Lord
Help me to remember my crown
Guide me through the trenches
Pull my feet out of the sinking sand
Let me not forget that I walk in
the glory of your Divine Master plan.
What is your heart telling you? What is it telling you to do? It knows more than you do? It knows before you.
I listen as I listen, I listen as I write, I listen as I speak, what are my words saying back to me? I listen for feelings of resistance. What are my words saying back to me? I feel for what's pulling against me, for what's pushing me. I desire to know the truth, as painful as it may be to face, I need to know because it guides me to what I need to do.
It doesn't matter what other people think you should do, what people may think about you, take no "should-ing," on you. Always remember that you are the one that will live with the consequences of any decisions that you make, so those decisions are yours and yours only to make. I have made decisions based on what people told me I should do, even professionals that I sought out for help, when things didn't go as well, I was the one left living with the consequences.
This is why it is important that our heart is clean and well taken care of, because it is our guide, it tells us clearly our path. Sometimes we don't want to listen to it, because we are afraid. We are scared to make the moves that it is telling us to, it makes sure that we know the truth, even the truth that we turn a blind eye to. Where do you feel resistance?
I was speaking to one of my friends about practicing the 369 method where you write out your manifestations 3 times, then 6 times, and extensively 9 times. I told her that I felt resistance within one of my manifestations as I was writing it. It made me question my choice, my own desire as to "why is there resistance there?" I had to get to the heart of my feelings of resistance within my own words. When we are speaking, we can feel resistance if it's present. In writing words, we can feel resistance in what we're writing if it's there. We can surely feel resistance in listening to another speak, because our heart knows lies. Even if we don't want to believe it, we know when we first hear it, if it is a lie. We can feel resistance inside of us through their words and uncertainty. When we hear the truth later, we know that we heard it before. We remember the feeling that we felt before, the first feeling in our heart in our gut that told us before.
What do you feel? Whatever you feel at any given moment is your true feeling. Feelings are fleeting and they are susceptible to change. However how you feel at any given moment is your truth, it is what it is. How do you know what you're feeling about a particular situation, person, position? Feel into your feelings, and you will feel your truth. Your feelings won't lie to you, they will tell you exactly what you want to do. If you think back to your first feeling about "it," you will notice that it is the same feeling that you have now, whatever "it" is. Even when you try to cover it up with denial of your feelings, they may suppress for a while, but they will come back up to the surface aggressively.
Think of a time where you were faced with a choice, think of how you felt about what you should do, now reflect on what you felt about your choices that you faced. You thought of the scenarios that you faced in all ways and directions. Think of where you are now and your initial feelings when the choice was first presented to you, the feeling that you have now is quite similar to the one you had before.
I have learned to take the path of resistance. I had to practice this, and it is said that practice makes perfect, I continue to listen to where my flow leads me. When did we learn to go against our inner voice? Where did we learn to not trust what our gut was telling us? I had to break the habit of allowing another's voice to rule in my head, that's why I monitor what I listen to, what I watch, especially repeatedly.
I don't push against, no matter how much my mind tells me to. I keep going in the direction that is leading me to good feelings, to more of what I desire. I take initial feelings as guidance from God. I remember my Mother telling me as a child to always go with my first mind. Not going with my first mind has put me in some life drastic changing positions. I consult with God before I make any decisions. When you do this, this practice becomes automatic. God leads the way, and the emotions that come to me, I look at them as protection for me, even if they make me feel uncomfortable, I know that there is a message within them.
What do you want to do? Do you even know what you want to do? Do you have a clear picture in your mind of what you really want to do? What would you do even if you weren't being paid to do it? These are the questions that lead to the purpose of your path.
When someone asks me to do something, to attend something, to go somewhere, I feel inside for the answer. Is there a feeling of resistance there or does it feel flow freeing?
I take the path of least resistance to everything in my life. It doesn't matter what everyone else is doing. It doesn't matter how good it sounds or how it looks to me, I go with my inner feelings. I have a motto that if I have to ponder over something I just don't do it, and it works for me. Because I think, "Why am I even questioning this so much in the first place?" I leave it. Sometimes my mind pokes at me, telling me that I am missing out on something, that I am not making the right choice, but I go inside to feel for the true answer.
I ask God, "what do you want me to do?" "I ask God, "where should I go?" When there is resistance in my sleeping at night, I ask God, "what do you want me to know?" I used to get frustrated when I couldn't sleep at night, now I know that there is a reason for me being awake. There is a message coming from the Divine realm for me. I get answers every time. I call out to God, I listen closely.
Before I go to sleep, if there is any kind of dilemma or problem present, I ask God to sort out the problem before I wake up in the morning, and I will know the answer upon awakening. I speak out to my subconscious mind, "As sure as the sun rises every morning, I know that the answer to my question will rise also."
I stopped doing things that didn't align with my spirit. I stopped talking to people and being in the presence of people who don't align with my spirit. I no longer felt uncomfortable after leaving the presence of certain people because I disengaged. When you know what you want, you don't settle for anything less than it. When you practice loving yourself, you don't settle for anything less than love. Your life changes as drama disappears. Your life improves as you stop hanging out with people who talk badly about you like that's acceptable. You make sure that people come through love if they're coming to you. I bring love so I expect love in return. I don't have time to waste in fear. I don't have time to waste in confusion. My time is worth more than drama, arguments, and participating in things that I don't want to.
Where are you going my love?
Do you know where you're going to?
Are you listening to you?
Do you stop to hear the clues?
I have something to say to you.
Take the path of least resistance.
Do what you tell me to do.
Walk to the beat of my own heart.
And trust what you tell me to do.
Thanks for connecting with me!
Let your heart lead the way, as you journey...
Infinite love to you,
I Stopped Asking People for Help and Started Going to God...
Thank you for the life
that has been given to me.
Although I agreed to many
I'll be okay because
God you are right here
with me. RGJ
There was a time when I went to people because I thought that I needed someone to talk to. I didn't quite get the power in knowing one's self. I didn't understand the magnitude of the Divine force that is accessible at any time inside of me. Sometimes when we feel that we need someone to talk to, they are not available for us in the way that we would like them to be. These people are trying to show up for themselves and then have to dig inside to show up for us too, and sometimes they don't have anything to dig up for us. I have found that whenever I am in a position to be a listening ear for someone else, it helps me. When people tell me thank you for listening, for helping me, I tell them that they helped me much more. I live by nothing is a mistake, there is no such thing as random, and everything is on Divine time. No matter how they come, how I feel about it, I feel like that they were Divinely sent to me. I feel there is a message in everything, every person, every experience, there is a reason and season for it all.
When I was younger, I would talk to people about things that I had no business talking to them about, my business, but it taught me some things about people and about myself. It gave me wisdom in talking to people myself. These people weren't experienced enough in life and didn't have the capacity to give me neutral advice. Their words came from their perspective only, and their opinion of my situation. Some people don't know how to just listen and to listen with empathy. I feel like there is no "wrong person," that I talked to because I learned a great lesson. I learned to keep my mouth closed and to go to God. I learned the power of silence and within that silence I was able to return to my true nature of who I really am.
If their words aren't helping, they are surely hurting.
As you tune into your true Divine inner being, you will know on vibrations alone of who you can and cannot go to in a time of need. "I stopped going to people for help, and I started going to God." It's not like I hadn't been to God before. And God sends messages through people, sometimes we don't have the ears to hear these people. When we are not ready for the message, instead we get offended. God has sent messages to me through people, and when I didn't listen, I lived with regret. God sends messages through our intuition, I have questioned that to, and lived with regret.
From November 27th, 2020 to December 30th, 2021 I was hospitalized between 3 hospitals. I was transferred to one for treatment, transferred to another for a special treatment, then transferred again to heal from the injuries that I obtained from the second hospital. There was a voice that came to me while I was in the first hospital to leave and to not return. I allowed fear to take control of me. I allowed the notion that these medical professionals could and would help me take over my inner voice. I was tired and desperate for relief. I had stopped talking to God, and started listening to fear. I had started making decisions with my afraid conscious mind.
This hospital escapade caused me a large hematoma on the left side of my body, internal bleeding, blood clots in my neck and arms, infected catheter in my neck, infecting my breast blowing up to a size G or so in infected fluid hard as rocks. Imagine painful heavy hot breasts full of infection, 55 pounds of fluid on my body, blood loss in my groin from a poorly placed catheter, and damage to my transplanted kidney. I am still dealing with the effects of this traumatic negligent experience. I can still remember the voice that spoke clearly to me saying, "leave this hospital and never return."
Here I am in a healing process where doctors have told me that I have the inability to heal. I have been told that it's doom's day for me if I don't take their treatment. I was talked to like I wasn't a person with feelings. They didn't care at all about how I felt. You know what I have learned? Listen to God. No one can tell you more about your body than you, you know how you feel. When I was released from the hospital, they tried sending me to hospice, or to send hospice home with me, I refused to go and I refused them coming into my home because they are setting me up for death, and I am setting myself up for life. I surely didn't feel like I was dying, and I was breaking the spell that they were trying to cast upon me.
There was a nurse that came by my room, even when she wasn't even my nurse for her shift, and she would look at me and say, "Allah has the final say," she repeated it if she felt I wasn't hearing her, then she would leave. Her words became impressed upon my subconscious mind.
I don't know why I am sharing this story now with you, and it's not the entire story, but it just came out as I wrote. I write with the flow and rhythm of my heart, and I do not restrict or hold back my words in concern.
There was a phlebotomist that came to draw my blood one morning at 4am, and I felt the need to talk to her because she reminded me of someone I knew, but she seemed reserved and quite introverted so I didn't because I overstand that kind of disposition. She came back to draw my blood two days later, but this time she got on her knees and woke me up. She said to me in a soft voice, "Ms. Jones you gotta wake up." I was drowsy from the medicines and just from being in there. She was on her knees holding my hand whispering, "wake up, you gotta get out of here, the lines in your arms are infected." I showed her the large hematoma on body, and I said, "I don't even know what this is," she told me what it was, and shook her head. She said, "this hospital is not equipped for what you need, you will heal better at home. She said, "if you want to live you have to get out of here." She told me that she couldn't sleep thinking about me, and God told her to come to me and warn me. I had all of the injuries that I wrote about above.
My condition was worsening and I had to fight to get out of that hospital.
I thank God for sending her to give me a message.
You don't know how grateful I am to God for sending her to me with that message. I was in the hospital and those doctors came to me every day around the clock, using manipulative tactics, and at one point, I was so confused, drowsy, and fearful that I could only hear their words. Imagine being told that you are going to die almost every day that you are hospitalized and I was there over a month. It seemed that they had drowned out God's voice within me. But that wasn't so, my Mother kept reminding me to have faith in God, to go to God for answers, and that God would show me the way. My Mother reminded me, "God didn't bring you this far to leave you."
I found myself awake in the middle of the night when those meddling doctors couldn't come, and I could hear God from deep inside of me, I could feel the presence of God within me. Divine signs began to come to me and show me the way. I started to become overwhelmed with gratitude for God protecting me in a situation where I definitely couldn't see my life, where I was overcome with grief. These doctors don't know me, yet are quick to speak over my life like they are God. There are many doctors who are going to have to answer to the Most High because they have unconsciously lost their way in dealing with patient's lives.
There was a time where I couldn't have told you this story without tears and pain. I felt violated and treated with disregard. I stopped going to doctors thinking that they could help me, thinking that they would have answers for me, to help me out of my situation.
Remembering that God is the Source of my supply and everything else is just an avenue was a game changer for me. I stopped going to people and started going to the Source. People cannot see the Divine plan for my life or yours, they weren't given that power. See how the doctors quickly write me and so many other people off, think if God gave them the power to truly know when and if you would surely crossover.
I stopped asking people for help and I started going to God. I don't have to worry about God talking bad about me, talking about what God did for me to other people, or telling my business. I know that it starts and stops with God. God loves me so that even when I wasn't in alignment in spirit, God sent a message through a soul for me. I feel an insurmountable feeling of joy. Right now, God has much more for me to do, I am not done fulfilling, so I keep listening to God for the way. I am given signs through people, through synchronicity, though messages, people come to me just in time, and even through blood tests, God has shown up over and over again.
When I go to God I don't have to worry about being asked a thousand questions of why, why do I need this? How did I get in this predicament? What do I need it for? Where is _____ person, why can't they help you? What happened? God knows what happened. I don't have to hear one complaint, one painful criticizing word, I don't have to be frowned upon, or feel shame because I remember who the Source of my supply is. God is the Source of my supply and the light within me, and I am the light. God leads the way, I follow.
Have you ever come to a point where you didn't know what to say to God? Where you avoided going to God because what would you say? Were you overwhelmed with where your life was, and was resentful? Were you at a point of, "why me?" Did you feel like you were being punished for some karmic deed so you stopped talking to God?
Those are merely tricks of the enemy's mind within you, they are false narratives, and we have the power to change the narrative.
I had to ask myself, "what do I believe?" "Who do I trust in?" When messengers of God come to you, there is no confusion, and they come truth and love. You can literally feel their best interest for you.
Have you ever stopped talking to God?
Who did you talk to?
Did things get better for you?
Could you see clearly your way through?
Did you remember that you are God as God is you?
God loves to talk to you.
Thanks for connecting with me!
Infinite love to you,
May you know the peace within you,
Love Yourself More...
I know you love yourself, and you can always love yourself more each day. Showing yourself love and kindness will make you feel better about any situation that you are facing.
This is not a cliche' speech of "I love myself."
I am not speaking of vanity, and being preoccupied with one's exterior presence. I am talking about what lies beneath the surface of the shell. I am referring to the tune of your heart, the flow of your thoughts, the truth of your words, and the kindness of your actions.
For the truth about love is what's happening inside
the outside shows lies
hides to create and fantasize
shielding what's happening inside.
When you love yourself more, you will recognize and protect yourself from those that don’t.
Loving ourselves brings back what’s natural for us. By being gentle with ourselves, we begin to remember what we love to do and pursue those things. It is our one true nature to love and be love, be loved. Loving yourself is a practice and it takes conscious work when you’ve been practicing self-betrayal and self-sabotage. It takes breaking the habits that we don’t recognize as self-limiting and self-defeating patterns.
To forgive is freedom for us, to forgive is for us. Yet we don’t have to continue to expose ourselves to the same people who hurt us just because we forgave them. In fact it’s the opposite, loving ourselves is protecting ourselves from the people who have brought us pain and hurt us with no remorse. We are left scarred, then we criticize ourselves for not knowing better. This does more damage. The words that we speak to ourselves become our reality.
What I need to know is revealed to me. Whatever I need comes to me in Divine right order.
Forgiveness is creating peace so that you will have peace. Because you can never have true peace without total forgiveness. Your heart must not be disturbed by anyone and anything to have total peace. The energetic air must be cleared between you and all conflictive situations for you to have peace. The stain must be removed from your mind, cleansed, and put away. You can't give any of your energy to the situation, you cut the cord. It cannot have any of your attention and focus in a way other than understanding the message.
To forgive the people who will never admit to betraying you, disrespecting and hurting you, the people who don't care about hurting, it takes a high level of awareness and compassion for yourself. This takes forgiving someone who is not even sorry. Aware that these people are infants in the spiritual realm, awaiting their awakening, you have compassion for them by showing it to yourself. You come to a feeling of it being okay, because they know not what they do. They may think they do, yet they do not.
They think they’re getting away with it, but they’re just getting by. Everything comes full circle in time, 369, three-dollars and six dimes. These people need to heal, yet refuse to do the work that it takes.
To love ourselves is to protect ourselves from harm and pain. If I came up to you and tried to punch you in to strike you in the face, would you block my hand and defend yourself? If someone was trying to choke you, would fight them with everything that you have inside of you to save your life?
We protect our physical in a powerful way bringing out strength through adrenaline that we couldn't have imagined having when faced with danger?
So why not protect your heart in the same way?
Why not protect your heart by listening to it first off?
Why not guard your heart against people who don’t mind breaking it?
Protecting your heart is protecting yourself.
How about protecting your heart from people who don’t love themselves?
Our hearts need more protection because our heart pain and injury doesn't heal as fast as a physical wound. No one will know the depth of our pain.
The key is to keep our heart protected and open.
When we don’t practice self-love, it’s hard to be conscious in our choices when it comes to matters of love. We look past huge red flags early on because we have developed a high tolerance for looking over them, not wanting to accept what we see. We want it to be different, and we end up making more of the same. It looks different, but time reveals all. This happens to us in friendships, romantic relationships, and even with family because we are not giving the love to ourselves that we seek from others. No one can provide the love that you need for you like you. Everything that we experience happens inside. You taste from the inside, you hear, smell, and feel from the inside.
We struggle with knowing when to say no without practicing self-love. We say yes to people who eventually bring us pain. Our expectations of others can bring us pain when people don't live up to what we imagined them to be. We put people before us again and again that would never do the same in return when we don’t practice self-love. We leave ourselves empty. We lose ourselves and stop doing the things we love for love, and that is where we go outside of loving ourselves.
Loving ourselves is taking good care of ourselves.
Self-love practice is a healing practice. It is unlearning overextending ourselves. It’s keeping our own rules, yet being flexible and reasonable in change.
People who don’t love themselves don’t understand or have real compassion for hurting you. They lack the awareness and humility for what they do to others. They really don't feel good inside, so they don't have the energy to care about how someone else feels. They are holding onto so much fear and pain that is creating a chemical warfare inside of them, that they are trying to hide through ego. They don’t worry about karma, they believe that they can cheat it, or that it won’t be that bad if it comes around to them.
If they're hurting, why should you get to feel good?
Self-hatred is one of the most disguised feelings. It can be masked in many ways, yet always reveals itself in divine time. It sticks out, look close enough you can see it. We practice self-hate when we tell ourselves that something is not good enough about us. Through guilt, shame, and criticizing ourselves practices self-hate. The people that we choose to engage with can show self-hate.
Self-love looks like being you and not giving energy to what another thinks or says about you. It is accepting yourself deeply and completely, how you are now. It’s being you, living in your truth, even when your closest friends and family don’t support you. It’s moving forward even when it’s scary and painful, you flow with the progressive flow of the Universe.
Self-love is eliminating old programs that you think you've been running, yet they are running you. You have to unlearn the patterns that have been keeping you away from experiences that you are seeking. On repeat.
We break malignant patterns through tapping into our subconscious mind to remove the barriers. This takes every day conscious effort and inner work. I work on doing this every day, removing energy blocks, recognizing when I am irritated, and moving and making decisions out of alignment. These decisions bring about the biggest lessons for me, great change inside of me.
When you love yourself, you can feel when a person doesn’t love you. You don’t have to ask, you will know by the way that they treat you.
How you love you sets the tone for how others will love you. If you have a low love tone in place, you will attract the low lovers. If you are willing to accept anything, then you will receive anything, and that is with anything in life. As we teach people how to treat us by what we allow. What we allow has everything to do with our self-worth. Forgetting your power, forgetting that you knew love before you knew anything else. You may have not known what to call it, yet you knew it felt good, and it felt safe for you.
It will break your heart to see that they don’t love you the way that you love them, and when you see, you go.
You go, nothing more.
It doesn’t matter if it’s a friendship or romantic relationship, a love injury hurts just the same, when you feel it, go.
That is loving yourself, listening to the voice that protects and guides you, the voice that says, "Go!"
When you go, you are showing yourself love. You are protecting yourself, because you know that love just flows naturally, it doesn't have force around it.
Whenever you love yourself, you don’t focus on the people who don't love you. You overstand that it’s a waste of time, and of lack of love within to be focused on someone that's not aligned with you.
Stay away from people who can't see your heart.
No one is going to take care of your heart like you do. It is called "the mother organ," of our body, and the name explains it all.
Everything that you need, you came here with inside. God prepares you plenty for your journey, so when someone doesn’t want to accompany you on your journey, they have served their purpose. Step aside and let the lesson move out of the way so that you can gain the reward from it.
You set the standard for love. You deserve the love that you give so freely to others.
When you love yourself, you know the love that you deserve.
Only what is real will remain.
I am sending infinite love to you.
"True Self-Care is an Everyday Practice"
With increasing intense energies from the collective consciousness, it's hard to determine what feelings belong to you and the ones that don't. This is a big cosmic year for us, and every person that you know is facing a major life transformation. Things are coming to the surface that was thought to be long gone, and those things are appearing, asking to be healed.
I was speaking to my brother who has been imprisoned for over 21 years, quite a sage he is. I asked him how he was feeling? His response was, " I am good, grateful. I have 0 complaints, I don't complain." For him to reach a place of peace around a world full of chaos can remind us that our peace is not determined by our surroundings. It takes much grace and experience to arrive at a place like this, yet it is possible. He gives the soundest advice, and he is the most understanding person that you can tell anything, a deep painful experience and truth. You know that your painful experience won't be placed under a microscope for judgment.
So many people are bursting at the core, ripe and ready for God's answers, so many are going through spiritual awakenings. I feel the energies from the collective of people who are feeling displaced right now. With how our world has shifted, our inner world is shifting too. People who are struggling with letting go of old outdated programs are struggling most. No longer are the days that we operate in worry or fear. The veil has been lifted, those who have sight can see through the illusions of this grand experience.
Every person that you know is going through a personal and spiritual transformation.
Take care of yourself, no one can take care of you like you, because you know exactly what you need to be at your best. There can be time dedicated to taking care of yourself every day. It is ideal that upon waking up in the mornings that you take care of yourself first. While the energy is calm, you are coming out of theta wave brain state, and setting your intentions through your thoughts for the day.
I deal with myself first, before I set out to deal with other people.
Don't skip rule number 1.
When I say that I deal with myself, I set my intentions before going to bed and upon rising. I ask God to think through me, speak through me, and act through me. Whenever I skip going to God first, I learn the hardest lessons. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33
When I go ahead doing things without consulting with the Most High, I end up in low vibrational experiences, and in these experiences I learn because I look at everything as a lesson, as a learning experience.
However, it wasn't always this way. I used to beat myself down in regret for choices that I made in not listening to my intuition. I used to be so far out of alignment with my true nature, that I don't recognize myself when I look back there. I used to be afraid all of the time when there was nothing to fear present. I learned fear early on and fear is a hard thing to unlearn. It's a practice to unlearn fear, as it becomes a habit. It's not that fear won't be present, it's just that it won't get my focus. I move everyday in the presence of fear, I go.
Before I do anything, I meditate. I remember when there was a time that I would put my meditation second. I was doing things backwards, going about my day, and then meditating. I was met with situations that I didn't care for being in, and being affected by the moods of others, as I can be greatly affected by the environment. It used to drain me, now I am spiritually built up. I can recognize another's low mood and move about maintaining my mood while being empathetic to whatever they're going through. I know when to disengage in conversation. I don't need the last word. I make myself as clear as possible, and then I move on. I don't worry about being misunderstood. People understand what they want to.
I do what I can, and those that love me will understand.
My own vibration wasn't balanced and I was out trying to operate and heal at the same time. I remember seeing Russell Simmons say, "I don't do $hit until I meditate." This is my word, and I overstand it so much more.
We have been done a disservice by not being enlightened on meditating, especially for women. Women face insurmountable stress and carry it from day to day without making time to release it. Just as you shower and clean your body, you must clean your mind. If you have been spending your time putting trash thoughts into your mind, you will have a garbage can for a mind, and aches and pains in your body.
Are your thoughts that you're thinking making you feel good?
"You should sit in meditation for twenty minutes every day - unless you're too busy. Then you should sit for an hour." Zen Proverb
The busier you are, the more you should meditate. The people who don't meditate need it the most. The people who seek counseling, would benefit from seeking meditation too.
I learned through experiences to meditate before I talk to anyone. I pray in my quiet time. I constantly am talking to God, as God talks me through my day.
When I reach the rocky parts of the road, I hold on tighter to God. I keep in contact with God even when I reach the low points where my soul is running out of steam, I am always thinking about connecting with the Great Spirit, being grateful for the guidance.
You may not believe in God or a higher presence, yet there is a presence that's always with you, talking you through the tough times, making things happen that you can't explain, bringing forth the impossible.
I see the God in you even if you don't believe.
Move your body.
You don't have to own a gym membership to move your body. You can walk outdoors before it gets too cold. You can work out at home. I have been doing yoga at home for years, I use the weights that I have, and when my body can't handle it, I don't push, I listen.
But I always dance. Don't forget to dance, to sing, to enjoy.
I take the path of least resistance. You can't force how you feel, yet you can make a commitment to yourself to care for yourself every day.
This could mean staying in bed and watching some of your favorite shows. This could mean going to your favorite place to eat, or making your favorite meal. Spend time with the people that you love. Do your favorite thing to do.
You can journal before bed and upon rising to help you through your days. You could paint your life with words through your journal. Being thankful for everything that you seek in advance.
What you are seeking is seeking you.
Keeping a gratitude journal has made a huge difference in my life. When you start to list the things that you are grateful for, you will discover that you live a life full of abundance. More than that, you will program your brain to know that you have everything that you need, that you have more than enough for your everyday needs.
Putting care over yourself means not answering the phone call that you know will be a toxic conversation. It's staying away from people and places that don't feel good and leave a stain on you that takes days or even weeks to wash off of your energy.
Everything is energy. That's why everything has a feel to it, a certain way it makes us feel, an energy.
This means that every encounter is an energy transaction. That's why you have certain feelings after conversations, and you distance yourself from people and places that have brought you pain before.
Putting care over yourself is looking out for yourself. It is making sure that your cup is filled before trying to pour into other's cups. It means minding your business, and shutting down anything that doesn't feel good. It means working to change, and make a difference in how your life is going and growing, especially if you don't like what you are seeing.
Putting care over yourself is saying your affirmations because you know that they will strengthen your spirit and mind. It's knowing that when we keep saying something over and over we will begin to believe in its truth. We become the words that we speak to ourselves. When you speak empowering words to yourself about yourself, no one else can tell you who you are. You will never be confused about you. You have already told yourself who you are.
Putting care over yourself is being you, and telling the truth to yourself and to others. Eliminating things in your life that are distractions and keeping you from experiencing your life's potentials. It's not ignoring how you feel, and what arises inside, and being honest about dealing with your feelings.
If we continue to run from ourselves, we will continue to be chased by ourselves.
Speak kind and loving words to yourself, and you will naturally feel this way toward others.
You know what you need to take care of you. Spend time in solitude with you. You can only hear in the silence, that's how you get to the silence in you.
Take care of you, and no one will have to take care of you.
Take care of your thoughts, your mind, your words, and your spirit, and the rest will take care of itself. Pour infinite love inside of your soul every day, loving on yourself, giving gratitude for your presence, and all of the gifts that you came here with. Forgive you, and stop punishing you, it is all a part of your Divine path. Your ancestors went through the abyss for you to be here. You are more than special and you do your best.
Put some care all over you and all around you.
You can't be kind to the world until you're kind to yourself.
I am sending massive amounts of love to you.
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"We Connect More Through Love"
Anger is not our true nature that's why it feels so unpleasant. It is why harboring anger can make us sick, because it turns into toxic waste, a parasitic feeding energy that spreads. It harms us and our health, because it places us out of balance with our true nature.
We don't want to be mad. We get mad at people for making us mad, how funny is that?
The after taste of anger is defeat. You never win against anger, it just uses you, and uses you up until there is no viable energy left in you for you.
It's not that we won't get angry, anger is a natural response. Anger is not the real problem, holding onto it is. When we find it difficult or impossible to release the anger, we become captive, and out of control with self.
Anger is always about something that we cannot control. It is deeply rooted in fear about losing control of situations that we never had control of in the first place. Anger is attached to the past, about what happened, and its feelings are never about the present moment for long.
Anger connects us, especially when we are angry about the same thing. This same anger can destroy us and our connections to each other. Anger creates separatism and gives the illusion of ego power.
We connect more through love.
Even though it's easy to get angry, anger is not an easy feeling. It's uncomfortable and feels yucky because it places a dark energy around us. Remaining in an angry state takes a substantial amount of our life force, and as easy as it may seem to us to be in anger for extended periods of time, it is extremely hard on our bodies.
Being in an angry state weakens our immune system, making us susceptible for getting sick. We give away our awareness in anger, our consciousness can't be heard. While in anger we do things to hurt others bringing them angry energies, and we don't realize how far the energy will travel when we pass it. We don't care whenever we're angry, we want to be heard, we want revenge, we want it to be the way that we want it to be.
We lose understanding forgetting that there are higher powers at work.
If you become angry about something, taking your anger out on someone else, especially someone who isn't able to equally defend themselves, you pass this destructive energy on to them. They are more likely to hurt someone else because of the pain that they feel from being hurt by your anger. This is how children get hurt by parents and other children.
Even if you don't believe in spells, anger is a spell. The words we speak create spells; spelling.
Spell definitions I found in an old dictionary and online: an indeterminate period of time
Middle English, talk, tale, from Old English; akin to Old High German spel talk, tale
: a spoken word or form of words held to have magic power
: a state of enchantment
: a strong compelling influence or attraction
Ex: Dad is angry about problems with work and/or his relationship with Mom, something that he needs to heal inside, and the child does something like; being too loud, not doing a chore, it could be something small. As this unhealed anger festers in Dad, he then takes it out on the child going overboard in disciplining the child. Child is angry and hurt, feeling that it was unfair to be treated as such by someone he loves and someone who is supposed to protect him. The child has no escape. Child takes out anger on bullying other children, or even subtly creating chaos between siblings and peers. Child doesn't feel love, and feels angry. Child performs and lives a facade to make the parents happy. This is not the child's job.
This scenario is one of many. Children are being abused across the world because of some adult's unhealed anger. This could be the Mom, and she could be angry about how her life is going, she could be angry at the father, becoming 10 times harder on the child to try and make the child different from the father in her eyes. She creates more damage than an absentee father with this overbearing behavior. She is angry, and her harsh and criticizing words beats the child down, showing disappointment at the slightest infraction from the child. She is creating an angry damaged person who will have a difficult time believing that they are enough. This child will be prone to hurting others or allowing themselves to be chronically hurt by others no matter how much love is present or absent.
Codependent adults are children that walked on eggshells.
Anger is a contagious powerful energy leaving a trail of defeat. It completely zaps us of our vital energies that we NEED.
Anger is passed on and on until someone puts a stop to it. It continues until someone says, "I am in control of how I feel." "These emotions aren't mine, and I release them with ease." This destructive emotion continues to pass until someone says, "no more!"
I am that someone. I broke through my anger. I was more mad than I could ever imagined being and when I looked inside, I realized that I was only angry with myself.
I was angry about things that I couldn't control. I was angry about my past choices that didn't turn out like I wanted them to. I was angry because I was sick. I was angry because I had to change my whole life. I was upset about what I had lost. I was mad at how doctors had treated me, how they didn't listen to me, and how I let them in. I was hurt about being misunderstood. I was taking the blame for everything. There is no blame, all happenings are Divine works in Divine time.
Anger is dripping in pride, letting our false ego drive. It's not to eliminate or suppress the ego that's ever present, it's to merge with it in balance.
Your anger has a purpose, use it for your benefit.
We can use anger for our benefit. It took anger to get me started on my healing journey. I had to be fed up with being sick and feeling emotionally and physically drained. I am continuously using anger to propel me forward. I use anger to heal my body, financial situations, and undesired life circumstances. I use anger for change. I use anger to beat defeat. More importantly, I use anger to understand. In anger, I am led to understanding and purpose. I am led to let it go.
I see the anger, and recognize it's presence, I go inside for why, and I transmute it into something powerful.
When I am powered by anger, I overpower anger. I choose healthier ways to deal with my anger.
I use anger for higher purposes to conquer whatever's trying to beat me.
Anger is a natural response, yet not our true nature.
Anger is reflection of the unhealed, a deep reflection of what we feel in fear.
Our true nature is love, and all that stems from it. We get angry for someone hurting us or someone we love, and that is expected. It becomes toxic when the anger stays, becoming a temperament, turning into resentment, blaming ourselves for not preventing what happened, when we never had control.
I know that anger is always present, just peeking around the corner, so I use it for my benefit instead of letting it use me.
It's so much healthier to feel happy. It feels good to feel happiness.
All that matters is that you feel good. The stuff I used to get angry about in the past, I smile at now, and it's a real smile because I understand. I understand that it’s easier for people to project rather than reflect.
Affirmation: I am balanced, calm, and serene whether life is going the way I want it to or not.
So much love to you, may you feel peace, that is unmovable by all around you.
“He who blames others has a long way to go on his journey. He who blames himself is halfway there. He who blames no one has arrived.” ~Chinese Proverb
I don't even get mad anymore, I be like, "let me know if it's a problem then, aight man holla then." ~the Real Kayne :)
It's About the Shift, Drift
This is about everything. It's been awhile since I have talked to you, and while I was meditating it came to me to blog. When I was writing last night before bed, it came to me, "I need to blog." I have made a career move that has been taking up the majority of my time through its training. It's getting easier every day and I am excited about that.
I know that everyone is facing some kind of challenge with the transformations that 2020 is bringing us. And while many say that they can't wait until 2020 is over, 2020 is just a precursor of what's to come for the next few years while we move through this spiritual world war III.
Be kind. Let it go. Take the higher path, it's less traffic up there.
I didn't know what I was going to write about because of the transition that I feel myself going through. I have much to share with you. This isn't a scary process for me since I have been down this awakening road before. External circumstances definitely ignited this transformation that I am going through and I welcome it all because it's all happening on the inside. I am grateful for the adversities that I have faced over these past month because they pushed me out of places where I felt stagnant. They showed me things in a way that I can never unsee. It moved me to a place of forgiveness for myself and others, for they know not what they do.
There was a time when I didn't understand why Jesus said, "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do," as they crucified him. I understand more than ever now why he would choose to speak those words at that moment. Now when people say or do hurtful things to me, it doesn't hurt like it did before. I am weightless. I know that what others do is because of them, and whatever they're going through inside. When people hurt you, they really don't know what they do. As they really aren't hurting you, they are hurting themselves.
Master Law of the Universe, the law of cause and effect applies to everything. For every action brings a reaction down to the smallest detail. Everything that we think, feel, do, we send out into the universe, there is energy attached to it that never dies, only transforms. It comes back to us how we send it. We can curse our own lives through how we treat people, especially the people that we feel can do nothing for us.
I have found myself in a place of acceptance as things come and as they go. I've wasted time in resistance pushing against hard boundaries, and in essence pushing against my own self. Trying to have a tug-a-war with God, clearly losing, sliding through mud, and feeling the pain of the rope as it burns and cuts my hands. I had to release and let go. I surrender over and over again, being obedient to God and the Divine path that has been planned before me. I am grateful for God's direction and correction.
We can't manipulate the way that people see us, we shouldn't try. They will always see us from the view of their inner world. We see what's inside of us, and often we deny that voice, until it gets louder, manifesting in the physical form.
This process of transformation has led me to be more honest with myself, more self-care, and eliminating things that don't sit right with my soul. When I start feeling resistance, I listen. We transform over and over again, the process never stops, it's life, a fibonacci pattern of life, never-ending, coming out of the mud like lotus flowers, over and over again.
I shared my feelings with you because I know that I am not alone in facing challenges since the shut down and other events in 2020. I've come to give you encouragement on your path, to urge you to flow with life's current, you will get to each destination. As we go against the current of life, we are nearly drowned to be pushed to our next destination, because we will be going in the direction of our fate.
There is somewhere for you to go, for you to be. Remember, we are always coming and going, that is a law of our eternity. Whatever you're facing won't last always. There is a season for you, a time, and this is the time to prepare yourself every day for receiving all the good that life has to offer you. Whatever you lost, will be replaced with something greater than your eyes can see.
We have to be in a vibrational frequency to receive what is already waiting on us. We must know that we are one the universe moving with it, as it is working with us and for us, even when it feels like it's working against us. It's just a test. Life is just a series of tests, and we keep taking the same test until we pass it.
We will keep living the same life that we have created, with the same patterns, until we interrupt this pattern.
If you want to experience real change in your life, stop falling for the same old traps. The same traps that take you outside of yourself, the ones that get you angry, triggered, sad, depressed, frustrated, the uncontrollable, don't keep falling back 10 spaces because of it. It's a trap!
Don't let the word of others hold weight over you. It is their opinion and that doesn't make it right. Do what you are called to do, what is in your heart to do, what sets your heart free, do what you see yourself being.
This year may be about major transformation with all of these planets in retrograde, Saturn-Pluto transit dishing out karma, newly Mars retrograde that brings out all of the anger, frustrations, and shadows within us that need healing. We are to be aware that these cosmic shifts are happening around us and within us, moving into higher consciousness with them. These shifts help us in clearing up our karma, cleaning our lives.
It's time to break the old paradigms, the old programs that haven't been working for us, that have become useless cycles, making life more difficult for us. It's time for us to have boundaries against the people who don't respect our boundaries. It's time to live and do what we really want to do, you don't know how long you will be here. Time is the real currency, the real wealth. How much time freedom do you have? Who does your time belong to?
It's time to stop talking about what we are tired of, and do something about it.
Are you really tired of the same ole same ole thing happening in your life?
Meditation has helped me and continues to help me in breaking cycles that can keep me bound to old programs. Meditation helps me in not carrying the hurt and pain that I experience in my life. It makes me see through a different lens, with understanding eyes. I look for the lesson in everything. I remain aware and in balanced energy so that I can receive Divine messages.
When good happens, good, when bad happens, good, because there is something for me there, there is a message that I need to hear, and in bad I discover that I hadn't been listening. I discovered that I had strayed too far from God, from my true nature, walking to the beat of another's drum, ignoring my own feelings from within. I have learned to disconnect, to let it go, to be.
God is the Source of my Supply. When we don't go to God before we make choices, we are ignoring ourselves too, and we end in regret, a big lesson learned. Meditation brings me an inner peace like none other. It tells me that even when life isn't going the way that I want it to, I remain calm, poised, and balanced, because it is God working in all phases of my life, and Divine law and order reign supreme in my life.
This is about the shift, allow your entire being to shift with it. When you shift against it, you will suffer, and feel pain. Something new, something beautiful, a profound experience is waiting for you over the horizon. It's waiting for you.
I have gratitude for everything and with each experience I have learned. I am always looking for something good to happen. Something good is about to happen. I keep my heart in that place.
Thanks for hanging in here with me. This is my release. I have more to come.
May you enjoy a calm mind and spirit, with abundance flowing freely in your life, bringing you perfect peace.
Infinite love to you all,
I hope you never believed that talking to yourself was crazy.
The external events that's been happening all around us changed the way that we live seemingly overnight. We have no control over what's happening in the world, we don't control how the planets move, we only control our inner world. We have been pushed out of comfort zones and into the unknown waters of life.
We are also living through major planetary changes like Eclipses and Saturn Pluto transit with retrogrades. It's been quite the ride, a wavy, surf's up, surf's down ride. Saturn governs our karma, it is a parent planet, and we are seeing the effects of instant karma happening all around us every day. Pluto brings forth transformations, revealing our shadow side, highlighting what needs healing inside of us.
Some of us are experiencing major transformations, especially after the July 4th Eclipse. Eclipse's reveal secrets, and brings the truth out. We have been seeing the truth coming out anywhere and everywhere, if your eyes are open, you can see it.
What truth has come forward in your life?
Have you been pushed into change?
I hope you deliberately talk to yourself.
I hope you intentionally say the kindest words to yourself.
You are having conversations in your head all day, you may as well talk about something good, something progressive.
We have the best conversations with ourselves. We come to resolutions talking to ourselves. We gain insight about who we are in talking to ourselves, and listening to our inner voice.
Before we knew of anyone else existing, we were talking to ourselves, asking "where am I? Wondering what is here?
It's the talk that we have with ourselves that determines our outer experiences, and how we feel about them. Whatever we're saying to ourselves over and over again shows up in our mood, our attitude towards ourselves and others, and our experiences.
We can talk ourselves into success, just as quickly as we can talk ourselves out of success.
It is our self-talk that works for us when we trust it, and work with it, instead in opposition of it. How do you speak to yourself?
No one knows more than you how much love that you need. Give this love to yourself.
Speak the most kindest gentlest words to yourself.
What could you say to yourself that would make you feel good inside? Imagine that, follow your good feelings.
If you are speaking to yourself in an angry voice, you will feel anger. If you are telling the story that upset you to yourself again and again, you will feel anger, sending out and receiving vibrations of anger. If your mind is calm, your entire body's system follows in calmness.
Are you participating in arguments as you talk to yourself?
Are you saying to yourself, "I should have ... this?" "I could have .... this better?
Are you speaking to yourself about being angry with someone else? You know that you're directing that anger towards yourself, right? You hurt yourself more with your anger than you will ever hurt anyone else. They can never care more about your feelings than you.
We feel emotions, but they are meant to pass through us, emotions are just energies in motion. Our emotions come from what we have been telling ourselves.
Think for a minute about what you think about. What are you saying to you? Are you being hard on yourself about something that didn't turn out the way you hoped? Are you replaying hurtful words that someone else said to you? Are you allowing their words to leave a tough stain in your mind? This is your mind and you have the control over it. You also have the gift of picking and choosing what you talk about to yourself.
There are no secrets, not even the ones that we keep to ourselves. They just manifest in our lives, sticking out in some kind of way, reminded us that they are not really secrets. Each thought carries a vibrational frequency which travels beyond us. Our words echo inside and outside of us, sending out strong signals, inviting what we're fearing, inviting what we're loving.
Every word that we speak is an affirmation.
We say the same things over and over to ourselves, so why not make sure that those words are empowering?
I am getting better and better everyday.
I think, speak, act, and feel in abundance.
I am balanced, serene, and calm whether life is the way I want it to be or not.
I am grateful that I am enjoying good health.
God is the Source of my supply.
All my needs are met at every moment of time and space.
I am grateful for God's wealth all around me.
I have love, peace, and joy in my spirit, and people feel it.
Talk yourself into what you want to achieve. Talk yourself into what you want to attract into your life. Talk yourself into having the confidence and courage to do it, whatever it is. Talk yourself into letting go what's no longer adding value to your life.
Talk to yourself in the present moment. There is nothing that exists outside of this moment right now. We are powerless outside of the present moment.
Drown out any voice that's louder than yours.
How we talk to ourselves plays a large role in our how we care for ourselves, and it shows the love that we have for ourselves.
How do you feel right now? That's how you know how you've been talking to yourself.
Don't Be Controlled by What you can't Control
It's not meant to be controlled, this is why you can't control it. It was always beyond your control, even if you didn't realize it.
I haven't spoken to you all in quite some time, with the abrupt extreme changes that the world has faced over the last 2 months, it has drastically shifted every thing in my world. Not only did the unexpected happen with the world being quarantined, but my family has faced some unexpected changes and challenges with it. I haven't felt quarantined at all, and I have been faced with more responsibilities than I had before the shutdown.
Even though this has happened, it hasn't moved my faith to uncertainty, lack, and fear, it has made my faith stronger and wiser. I have experienced a massive shift inside about how I feel about life, my life, and where it is headed. I accept letting go of things and people at this point that no longer serve my highest good. I don't mind releasing anyone who pushes fear because they are filled with fear. You can always tell what someone is afraid of because they try to get you to fear it too.
You have to be spiritually strong from those that try to project their feelings and fears onto you. People will sit in fear for years over things that they have no control over. One of my favorite affirmations is, "God is in control." Those 4 words soothe all fears for me, because I know that everything that happens in or around me is through a great Divine plan. I know that everything that I experience is for my highest good.
Even if the experience is unpleasant and uncomfortable, I realize that it is stretching me to grow, to move beyond the bounds of which I have been standing comfortable. I can do, I can plan, I can be conscious, but I understand that God is in control.
We have been known for wanting to control everything, We make plans and then when things don't go as planned, we get upset and disappointed. We hold onto things that we have no control of, we worry about things that we can't change or control bringing on anxiety, frustrations, and depression. We keep things in our mind that have no business being there because there is nothing that we can do about it.
We hold on until this thing absolutely rips our lives apart, ripping us apart, and subsequently coming to realization that we had no control over what we were trying to control.
We can only control our inner environment, what happens, when it happens, is all beyond the scope of our control. There is a word that I was always told as a child, "Let Go and Let God. I have literally brought about grave sickness in my life through worrying about what I had no control over. I just kept worrying and stressing until my body said no more. My body said, "no longer can I take any more of these thoughts, these feelings, my heart said, "this is too heavy for me to carry," and I have to let you know. My body was screaming for help, for love, for comfort.
Holding onto things trying to manipulate them to my fashion instead of letting them fly free has cost me my peace before, but I learned.
In dealing with my problems the most unhealthiest ways, in secret, in guilt, I learned how to deal with them the healthy way. I learned how to regulate my emotions instead of being swallowed by them. I learned that gratitude is a life saver. Gratitude cancels out worry, it's too strong for worry to wrestle with. When we can say that we are grateful for every single thing that has happened and that is happening in our lives, we have truly arrived. We have figured it out. We have come to understand that there is something greater working in our behalf.
We can't control what someone says about us, how they feel about us, what they think of us. What someone else feels about us shouldn't take up any space in our mind. Not only is it beyond our control, but more than that, it doesn't matter. It only matters how we feel about ourselves because we can only feel what we feel inside. We know what we go through and what we've been through. We can't feel other people's feelings. We may be able to get a glimpse of what someone else is feeling, but we don't fully feel what they are feeling, it doesn't matter how empathetic we are.
Whatever we put our focus on has the ability to control our lives, in fact it does control our lives. Being that the mind can only focus on one thing at a time, then whatever we place our focus on will be the thing that leads and rules our lives. I work to maintain a high level of awareness of who and what I let into my life and to stay in my life. If a person lives in fear, I will more than likely keep far away from them as possible. Fear can be contagious, it easily seeps into our subconscious mind, ready to play out. And once I see that a person projects, promotes, and wallows in fear, I move around. But in moving around, I look inside to see what I am vibrating to bring this type of energy before me.
I monitor what I let my eyes see and what I allow my ears to hear. I know that if we continue to focus on something, giving our attention to it, it will grow and become dominant in our subconscious mind. I aim to be aware of my presence in mind more than I aim to control it. Because what is in our conscious mind at any given time is a message. It is something that has come to surface so that we can heal it, and move beyond it.
God is in control.
If I could ask for anything it would be for more awareness, not control.
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Infinite love to you!
Do the things that lift your vibration higher
Do the things that make you feel good. Those are the things that will lift your vibration higher. While we are home and given the opportunity to focus on ourselves, this is the time for us to work solely on ourselves, emerging, transformed. This too shall pass. Whenever we work on ourselves, we affect the whole.
I haggled over what I would write about today. I went back and forth with topics, choosing this one, and starting on another one. My well is full, clear, and flowing. I was looking forward to writing to you all day. We have said to ourselves and others that we don't have time to do the things that we have always wanted to do. We talk about being too tired to get things done. We are too tired to do the things that we enjoy. Well this is definitely a time of stillness. It is for us to be still within and outside of ourselves. The answers are coming in quickly to us, we have to be open to receive them, or we will miss the entire message.
This time has brought a collective sense of humility over us. We are lighting up on the inside and exploring what we can do on the outside.
I feel a sense of excitement and a deep feeling of gratitude. Just think, we have a chance to do the things we want to do, the things we need to do, it is all a part of the Divine plan for us. I am grateful and happy to have the chance to reset. We get to spend time with our families, and teach our children the things that they won't learn at school. If we looked at this as the grand opportunity that it is, we wouldn't have time to be afraid. The days of being scared are long gone. This is an awakening, the uncovering, a new arrival, a certain faith. I asked this in my blog a few weeks ago, "Do you feel the inner shift?" Well do you feel it now?
If you don't, then you're not in touch with your senses.
We can be cautious in this time, but if we are worried, we are sure to attract the very thing that we fear. What we put our focus on expands, we get more of it. What are you putting your focus on? Is it on the things that make you feel good? Take the path of least resistance, go in the direction of what makes you feel good. What makes you feel good is right for you to do. It's conducive to your health, well-being, and lively-hood.
When we do things that aren't in our heart, in alignment with who we are, we feel like its work.
What do you enjoy doing? What is the thing that you would do even if you weren't paid to do it? This is an excellent time to do the soul searching, leading to living the path of your passion.If you're living the path of your passion, this time can be used to fuel it. This is the time for the chance. Whenever we do the things that we love to do, it automatically places us in a higher vibrational frequency. All dramas and pettiness falls away in a higher vibrational frequency. We let go when we vibrate higher, we forgive, and release all that no longer serves us.
And you want to know the main things that no longer serve us? Grudges, anger, sadness, doubt, worry, regret, procrastination, and fear. When we hold onto some offense that happened in the past, we cannot move forward into this new Earth, we will surely be left behind. When we hold onto outdated ways that aren't growing us, we will be left behind, and become bitter. There is a brand new conscious wave coming through, and you're either on the wave, or you're being drowned by it.
I was meditating this morning and thoughts of the past kept arising within me. Some of them were from my childhood, some from my early twenties, and I recognized them, escorting them out of my mind. I kept bringing myself back to the present moment. Over and over again, as the thought came up of some thing that I did to embarrass myself, or what I could have done instead of what I did, I brought myself back to the present moment. A surge of peace came over me, leaving me in a state of bliss.
All that we want to bring to life is in our present moment. Nothing can be controlled outside of our present moment. We can put in good faith, we can put our energy towards what we want to happen, but we must feel this in the present moment. We can't change the past, it doesn't matter how much we think of it. We can drive ourselves crazy thinking of how we can rearrange the past and it will still the same. We can't change the future, but we can picture what we want it to look like. We can hold the image of what we desire in our mind, and our subconscious mind will treat it like we already have it. We get what feel on a subconscious level. So it doesn't matter how many times we say the affirmations, they won't start to move until we truly feel it on a subconscious level. Keep saying the affirmations until they penetrate the subconscious, they will. It's our determination to win that conquers.
This isolation time is not much different from how I already live. My introversion keeps me to myself, and I don't like to go many public places especially restaurants and social places. I like the places in nature, outside to hear the birds, away from the crowds. And I don't talk to many people. I love people like all things, but I truly nurture my relationships, and treat them with care.
I am doing what I like to do. I am refusing to do anything that feels forced. I am saying no to doing things that are not in my heart without a second thought. I have so much to write about and it feels good to write.
Like Abraham Hicks says, "Nothing is more important than that we feel good." Can you think of anything more important that feeling good? It takes much effort to do things when we don't feel good. So I go in the direction of what makes me feel good. We have to make that a practice, a practice of feeling good. Isn't that what self-care is all about, feeling good?
We won't get out of here alive, we must enjoy our time here now. It's not what we have it's what we make of what we have. I will make the best of what I have in grace and gratitude.
What makes you feel good? Write these things down. Make a list of the things that feel good. Do those things. Go in the direction of what feels good. Make plans to do the things that feel good, and leave out the guilt. If you want to binge watch your favorite show, do so without guilt. If you want a piece of cake, eat the cake without guilt. If you skip your work out to rest, do so without guilt. I always say that you can eat whatever you want, if you do so in a happy spirit. It takes a lot of unnecessary energy used to do the things that we don't desire doing. Reserve some time for yourself, dedicating it in doing the things that you want to do.
One thing's for sure, don't get caught up in what everyone else is doing. Don't compare what you're doing to what someone else is doing. Your time will come. It doesn't have to be forced, it will flow. Everything that is meant for you, flows to you, and all things not meant for you, flow away from you. It took me some time to understand this, and once I did, I no longer felt hurt about the things that flowed away from me, I realized that they weren't meant for my journey. They served their purpose and moved on, so I needed to learn how to do the same. They were just passing by.
It doesn't hurt anymore once you realize, "That wasn't for me."
If it was for me, it would still be here. No one can take away what God has for you. It will literally gravitate towards you making it through difficult terrain, rain, tornados, fires, barricades, and floods, to flow to you if it is meant for you. If it has moved out of your life it is for your protection and higher elevation. It is to elevate your spirit to higher highs to get closer to where you came from before you forgot. We forget when we get here why we came. These trials and experiences help us to remember. It puts us in the place to our path. All things happen to us for our highest good, even the most devastating experiences. That's hard to accept, but the Universe is working for you at all times.
This is a time that I like to call "Our Second Chance." And during this time, I have put my focus on keeping my vibration high. Not falling for the old traps that used to steal my joy. Ignoring all that tries to tempt me to anger, to fall back into past habits, and looking for healthier ways to see things that I have no control of changing. Even more, having the patience to sit with what I want to change at this moment, but cannot. To learn what I need to know, so that when it is changed, I am ready for it. I am ready to receive it, and never to return to the way it was before. I am making myself a vibrational match for the things that I love, the things that I enjoy, the things that I want, the things that I picture with my mind's eye.
Infinite love to you all. I pray the safest covering over you and your families.
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Even if the whole world is falling apart, I will remain, calm, peace, and serene within.
You own your within.
Raquel Givens Jones
Author, blogger, poet, writer, radio show host, animal lover, yogi,
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